The Chaos

Alright I took some time off. Between traveling, school and life I can honestly say I neglected you all. No worries, we will carry on as usual. It took me quite a while to decide what I wanted to share with you all today. Self-motivation and some Columbian coffee has put me on track. So here goes. Have you ever wondered why your life is chaotic or why nothing seems to fall into place? Yes, I have wondered that as well. It seems like you have more tasks than time and you just can not get enough restful sleep. Take a moment now to just stop and breathe real quick. Since you are reading this you are actually taking a quick break which is good. Now take advantage of this quick break and get an extra 15 minutes of alone time, silence or most of all PEACE. Now since you have settled, lets take a look at life really quick. The chaos in our life is due to chaotic patterns we engage in frequently. Everyone has a pattern of behavior. Those patterns influence how we think and what we do. Now there are other influences of our behaviors but I will save that. Now we have to interrupt those behaviors and patterns to get stabilize or whatever you consider to be normal. The first step, let go of superficial things or things you can not control. Your life maybe in chaos because you feel you don’t have enough make-up, hair isn’t done, face isn’t beat, you not making the money you think you are deserving, you do not have a man, the man you have aint …. It is Sunday, I will not curse. Let’s begin with something you can control. YOU. You are the leader of you and you have to direct yourself according. Understand that leading and controlling yourself is a process and you need to submit to the process. Next, as a leader you have influence. Yes you can influence yourself to do the right thing. If you need some additional influence surround yourself with people of POSITIVE influence. That is important. Last, create some goals for yourself. I am not talking about extreme goals that scare you so much you do not want to start. Goals that are attainable and measurable. Start small and build your way up. Now love yourself first and through the process. I know we talked about it before, but it has to be addressed again. And as many times as I feel necessary. Listen everyone has a history and definition of what love is and can be. What I am saying is place whatever definition you want to it, add some experiences and history and move forward.  Give yourself experiences and create the experiences you desire. Be subjective with your love for yourself because the subjectivity will control how you interact with yourself and others. Being too open could cause you some hardships, but it could open a door to a beautiful place. That’s your decision.  I said all that to say this. There are times when my life has been extremely chaotic and I probably caused a lot of the chaos. One of many constants in my life is the time and space I give myself. Being the only child I am ok with silence and being alone. Some of you better start learning how to be alone and how to deal with silence. Didn’t grandma tell you to go sit down somewhere. Well guess what, try it out. It may just help you. Throughout my chaos I still find a space to love. I know it may sound far off from some who know me but it is the truth. At times my love is subjective. For example, I love my Dad but I do not have this unconditional, all loving anything goes love for him. My experiences and interactions have taught me a few things. I can love you and love myself more. I can care more for me than I do other people. It is ok to be selfish with my love for myself. Learn to love and lead your own life. Figure out what process you need to submit to so you can become the person you desire. Let the new you be not up for debate. Settle into a place that’s comfortable for your growth but not complacent. Now look at yourself and say I NEED TO #DoBetter.